Dammit being the DD kinda sucks now, everyone is past out drunk. Yet I am sober and wide awake!!!

So much fun & I am the sober one!!!

Clancey's here comes Daisy!!!!!

Fishnets are not very comfy!!!

Ok so I am freezing in my DAISY DUKES!!!!!

Oh my Sherwood has not changed afterall, the costume has though!!!

Wow Halloween is more fun then I remember!!!!!

Wow Sherwood has changed but I still have an attitude when I am here, what's up with that?

In Sherwood heading to Sherwood Plaza. Then out trick or treating in the old home town.

I have gone from being sad to being filled with anger. Funny how this actually feels better.

My boys have been following me everywhere. I just climbed into bed and the had to move, so THEY could get comfy, punks ;)

A positive attitude will not solve all your problems, but it will annoy enough people to make it worth the effort.

I am trying to smile, wincing is about all I can muster at the moment.

If a man is talking in the forest, and no woman is there to hear him, is he still wrong?

Muscle relaxers & morphine equal very fuzzy feelings & very heavy eyes.

I have a new who gives a fuck attitude. This applies to just about everything or anyone. No offense intended to anyone in particular ;) ;)

This is stupid I'm home now but can't sleep. Though I need the pain meds, I don't want to keep taking them. They might help me get to sleep.

Going home =)

Ok so the next person to rudely wake me up by doing a poor job at sticking a needle in my arm is gonna get it. Give me a break all ready!!!!

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Sorry I got nothin, too much time laying in this dam bed. I think I will just move in here. Ya that's it!

It's 3am & they wake me up, why? Just to tell me I have to stay a day or two more in the hospital. Really it couldn't until the morning?!!!!

Thanks for the singing get well nurse!! I thought she was going go be a stripper by how she was dressed!!!! Thanks again. Chad & Steph =)

Again, can't sleep with the testing every 2 hrs. I wish I could have sleep over guests. Preferably a nice pretty woman to cuddle with :(

So the cute nurse gave me a sponge bath, I am thinking of spilling my jello, just for another one...

So at least I like the hospital food. Getting woken up every two hours for testing makes even the sleeping pills ineffective. Two more days.

Trying to sleep in the hospital is just plain impossible...

The bruise on my side was getting bigger & more painful. A internal suture broke so it's bleeding. Here is to another hospital stay :(

You might think I would be sleeping with all the heavy duty pain meds. Well it is past 4 am and I am still wide awake. This suxxxx

You know it is just too bad I waited so long. Because in the end in it was15yrs only to realize nothing had changed. Life goes on & so will I, it's too bad to.

Ok so no matter what I write, someone thinks the worst of me. I guess I am just a liar and a dishonest person. Whatever she is the one with trust issues not me!

Woke up in agony not because I wanted to. I can do this, I could do w/out the pain. I don't like being drugged up like this, anymore that is ;)

I survived day one, day two is more of the same, tissue harvesting. I know I have always had a high tolerance for pain but this is horrible!

Well gathering of viable tissue for my treatments is very painful. It is going to be a long process.

I'm excited to get my heart treatment I desperately need. The pre-op protocols are hell. I even have to forgo, well ya know. Sorry Steph trust me I'm bummed too

Insomnia has some perks ;) I could go on but... well I would have to censor out the good parts so... Just think on that.

I was just told I am more generous than most. Really? I think I am quite selfish. Thanks Steph, you are so much more than that, prettier to.

I'm so glad that I was treated poorly. If not I would not be here having such a great time. Here is to the one that made it all possible ;)

Ya so back to the having to be a jerk, I am nice and she is a total bitch. Fuck this I am going to just ignore & avoid her. I will be jerk if I see her, ugh!!!!

I hate being jerk but being nice isn't paying off in anyway. I guess I will give being a jackass a try, it works for so many others.

I knew I was going to end up getting hurt. I thought the payoff was worth it. Hindsight is always 20/20, I hope I learned from from this mistake.

If I have done anything I am sorry for, I am willing to be forgiven

It seems I do know how to be uncaring and flippant. I don't really like it but if it stops me from getting hurt, ok. I feel like I'm just the kind of guy I hate

I don't like being alone, I never have. I need someone to share my thoughts with. I guess writing will try to fill the void. It's a temporary fix but might help