Small Town

I'm not saying I live in a small town, but if I go out, get wasted and forget everything I did I can be 100% certain every other fucker hasn't forgot!

Nauseous and way too much weight loss

I can’t put on weight no matter how hard I try, I keep losing it. I lost another 5 lbs in a little under a week I am down to 210 now. My doctors are worried but when are they not. I keep losing muscle not fat and that is never good. They say I have to gain at least 15 lbs in about 2 weeks. If I don’t and I continue to lose weight they say it will be an extended stay in the clinic. I am nauseous every day and for the most part the only time I am not is when I am sleeping. I get car sick now every time I go somewhere. I made a mess of mom’s car the other day, just the outside of it but still. I get myself by, I sleep about 18 hrs a day, I just started waking up and having to run to the bathroom before I get sick. Just another issue I have to overcome.
I saw a coworker I used to work with up in Seattle. He didn’t recognize me at all, to use his words I look sickly thin. He said it jokingly but I know it is true. He has known about my health he is just in shock about how I look. Looking into the mirror I look as rail thin as I did in school. Well I still have a little more in the belly area but so much less then I have been in 5 yrs. I don’t want to have to spend more time in the clinic. I need to get a good friend to talk to. That is going to be tough I have pushed away every friend I had. I was so scared in the beginning I pushed everyone away. Now I regret that emotion taking control of me, now I live with it.