It may be I am just meant to fade away....

It may be I am just meant to fade away.... I love my friends (all 2 of them) I love my family. In time you will all understand I was trying to cope with and unmeasurable weight.

I am weaker then I have ever been. The doctors say it is normal; I am trying not to tear up here. They say it is progressing in the direction they hoped it wouldn't. I speak here because in a way I am anonymous. No one reads my thoughts here. If they do they never acknowledge it, I kind of like it. I am sidetracked so easily now I think I just lost myself here for the last ten minutes, wow, anyway...

I have most everything in order. I have some conversations I still have to have before.. I have a few I miss and a few I could really use there strength... I am here but all ready gone...