OK so with everything I have been going through I can say I think I have kind of gone crazy. I read my post and am shocked by the emotions there. They come in such a flood it is hard to fathom. I cry at just about everything and it is very annoying. I have stopped with my medications; I just want to be normal. Lisa a very sweet 17 yr old girl with lymphoma from my dying with dignity support group died yesterday. She just turned 17; it made me appreciate my time with all my friends and family.
It made me stop feeling sorry for myself and to start wanting to live everyday for the day. My doctors say at the most I have 5 yrs with continuing treatments. With those treatments my ability to, well life a good life with be very hard. So it was my choice to say, I want to life as best I can and with no nasty side effects from all 16 different medications I am supposed to take every day. I don't know how much longer I will be here, but I am going to be living it up as much as I can.
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